Friday, November 2, 2018

NopeYC Marathon

I'm supposed to be running the New York City Marathon this weekend. Instead, I'm sitting in the airport lounge in Bogota, Colombia, waiting to head back to Colorado. I will not be running this weekend, and I haven't run at all since May.

It is frustrating as hell.

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

Resting from Social Media

I haven't been on Facebook in a while.

It's not you.

But it probably is your friends.

Like many people, I am increasingly disturbed by social media. It's your buddy making racist, misogynist and homophobic remarks disguised as Christian/American/political truth. I happen to like nuanced and well-reasoned debate with reasonable people who are willing to dive deep into an issue, explore it, and agree to disagree. But based on substance, and "he's not Hilary Clinton" IS NOT A GOOD ENOUGH DEBATE POINT, nor is it a mic drop.

It's also the carefully crafted Facebook profiles that have been making me feel crummy. People with either seemingly perfect lives, or significantly beautiful insight into their imperfectly perfect lives that it was making me feel inadequate. My reality is that life isn't perfect, and I don't have spiritually significant insights into why. Sarcasm and black humor? Sure. Wisdom? Yea... I'm a quart low on that.

And the running posts, but that's mostly because after nearly 5 months, I'm still limping around not running. I was tired of wishing I was going all the awesome runs that it felt like EVERYONE ELSE was, while I'm here on the floor doing stretches and gaining 15 pounds.

There was also the obligation factor. I was starting to feel like this:



Seriously.

If our relationship is based on what I do or do not "like" of yours on Facebook, and if my knowledge of what's going on in your life is based on social media... Well, I think that's a problem.

So I hit the pause button.

Ok, I initially disabled my account, but then I remembered I needed some contact information off of there, so I re-enabled it, got whatever it was I was looking for, and deleted Facebook off my phone. But anyway.

I realized there were times of the day when I was reaching for my phone and clicking on the Facebook icon, without necessarily thinking about it. Like it was a physical habit and I wasn't totally sure what to do now?

But I think this is better.

There are some thing that I would like to check in on, but I think I should just message those folks and ask how things are going. Passive monitoring of life events... I don't know, maybe that's a route that I don't want to take right now. Maybe I need to be more intentional, and if I don't have time to do that, I need to learn what that means and why.

In all likelihood, I will go back (well, I said that about meat and never did, so who knows...) But until then, send me an email, will ya?

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Mountain, Deferred

May 6, I ran the Colorado Marathon. That night, I tried to get on a plane for London. After nearly five hours of delays, they cancelled my flight, and I tried again the next day, with more delays, and another rescheduled flight.

Sunday, May 6, 2018

Race Report: Colorado Marathon

I am writing this from the Denver International Airport, where I am nearly three hours delayed taking off for London, because there's nothing like an end to a race like sitting on an airport floor, stretching intermittently before a nine hour flight...

Sunday, April 22, 2018

The In Between Spaces

I am starting my second week here in Asia. I will be here in the Philippines through tomorrow night, and then head on to our fundraising office in Korea.

I don't normally take to my blog to talk about work. I don't want to talk about my job, about Compassion, or about what we do here. Everyone makes their own choices, but this is my personal blog and I don't want to confuse it with my professional life. So please know, when I share this information, this is coming from my personal perspective. I'm not talking about what Compassion does or doesn't do, and I'm not commenting on the efficacy of our work. It's good work, and poverty is complicated, but that's my day job: this is is about how my heart is seeing my time here.

Monday, April 9, 2018

Training for the Race

I run the Colorado Marathon in 28 days. In 5 days I get on a plane for Asia, and won't be back in the country until 6 days before the marathon. I've been trying to finish my major training before I leave, since there are no guarantees I can get a long run in while I'm gone.

This means that I'm at the point in training where all of the following are true:

Friday, March 23, 2018

De-Southwesting, Sessions 4 and 5

Anita's basement
This post has been a year in the making.

Around the time of the 2017 Superbowl, we bought a fridge for the basement. That was the beginning of the basement makeover, moving it from Anita's favorite silly-putty color to something more modern, with a rustic edge.